oh no(this is why i hate to read other blogs)

i......
dunno how to say la .

i really want to talk about it, but its so difficult

to trust again.
i m really not myself at times
its like theres this hole in me (how it got there in the first place i have a very good idea)
that sucks in the real me everytime
it just sucks away every bit of me.and....
i become so withdrawn , so inferior,so artificial.... so so so so different

but looking on the bright side.i still have this saturday(odac welcome party!) to look forward to . its this warm fuzzy feeling of belonging, and not just that...more importantly....more importantly....hahaaaa(im such a spas)....wow!

aiya. dont feel like pressing the publish post button.
this new style is so personal.so unfunny.so bloggy .
The Ministry is so going to disapprove...=(

random note:Exclamation marks make the world a great place.TRY IT !!!!!