this stranger beside me

as i sat in silence,
i couldnt help but wonder.
who was this person
i used to know so well
share joy and sorrow
and all my thoughts
and all my fears

gone are the feelings of ease and please
now in their place
are insecurities
upon tension
upon fear
sealed in by an unbounding sadness

who are you.
my friend.
who taught me
confidence, belief, humour, friendship,love.

now its just.
distance upon distance, and silence... more silence.

same shit different day.
access to all information
mooing
woodsurfing
guy or girl
bus rides
hikes
calls
movies
latenight msns

i cant tell you how proud i was.and am.
or how good it was.
and how i long to turn back time.

but.
to the stranger beside me,
it dont mean a thing
just different names for the same thing